I took a test today that the Gallup folks have created for organizations to choose leaders better. These tests are fun because they get me asking question about how and why I do things and then that in turn gets me thinking about how and why other people do things. Then, because I know well how and why many dudes do things this leads me to why and how women do things. This may expose my singularity of thought, but women are so interesting and as soon as they become interesting and no longer crazy one has I lot to think through and study. The truth being though this kind of exploration is fun.
I was giving a talk one time at a gathering just for girls at my college. I had my good friend Paul with me and we were trying to help these girls understand their guy. Needless to say the night ended in tears and I think we learn just as much about women in the exchange. The mind and heart of any person is an unsearchable depth. And that reminds me of the time I was being dragged into the ER in an ambulance because I ran myself unconscious in a race. When I came to there was this odd sense that the story I had lived thus far was connected to something so much bigger than just me. It was as if and I quote myself now, “its like your mind is infinitely deep.” The paramedic translated this into, as the sheet read, ‘delusional’. But the very fact that I can remember this part of the experience and not others I think is very significant. I might have been on to something in my delusion. If you are an intricately fascined being sustained by a God with infinite realities as a part of his nature, the divine spark in you is of great interest. How and why you live and move and have your being is fascinating.
I’m still getting to know my parents and I have known them my whole life, my closest friends are still surprised by me. Its not that we as people jump out of character and therefore are unknownable it is that our character was meant to be known over the long haul, through journey with others. As I rush to some sort of conclusion while my computer tells me it will die soon I think people are so great. Your so fun and loved. And you are loaded with love and creative energy- the same stuff God made the world with. Lets explore it…
*for the record my computer did shut down… and i just found this post, a week later.
